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'My voice was muted and threatened for so long, and I wasn't able to speak up or say anything,' she said. Spears finished off the video by addressing the #FreeBritney movement directly. 'Hopefully my story will make an impact and make some changes in the corrupt system,' she said. Spears says though she's 'a very strong woman,' she 'can only imagine what the (conservatorship) system has done' to others. I'm here to be an advocate for people with real disabilities and real illnesses.' That's why I got out of my house, and I worked for 20 years, and I worked my (butt)В off. I've lived with victims my whole life as a child. 'It's theВ little things for us women, but it makes a huge difference,' she said. In a video of herself outdoors and speaking directly to the camera, Spears noted that nearly 14В years is 'a really long time to be in a situation you don't want to be in,' adding that she's grateful to 'be independent and feel like a woman' by having the keys to her car,В owning an ATM card, 'seeing cash for the first time' and buying candles.

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2, took to Instagram Tuesday to update fans on her plansВ and to express gratitude for the #FreeBritney movement, which advocated for her conservatorship's termination. At the very least, it may provide you with a вЂњtime out.вЂќ At the other end of the spectrum, it might very well save your life.Britney Spears is offering a fans a glimpse into her mindset and wellbeing days after a Los Angeles judgeВ officially terminated her conservatorshipВ of almost 14 years. The lesson here is simple: look deep within yourself, and when you finally understand you possess a creative streak вЂ“ regardless of how strong or weak it may be and what skills or activities it points you toward вЂ“ you need to grasp it, nurture it, develop it, and flaunt it. Eventually, I also researched, wrote, edited, and published eight books, including Peddlers and Post Traders: The Army Sutler on the Frontier, the only book in print on the profession and contributions of the American military post trader. I picked up tools I had used in high school and learned the art of pen and ink and watercolors. The associated creative activities (1) enabled me to separate myself from my self-generated stress, (2) enhanced my self-image, (3) provided a source of personal satisfaction, and (4) unknowingly moved me closer to the bipolarвЂ™s goal of personal balance and stability.Д«eginning in 1993, at age 55, I moved closer and closer to using creativity as my new path in life. Later, as I coped with the angst of forcing myself to take a full-time job, I researched, wrote, and published a book on the creation of Yellowstone National Park.

I spent as much time as possible by myself, researching and writing the genealogy of my family surname. The first time it happened, I was avoiding my wife in a splintered marriage. The diagnosis enabled me to understand my fractured past and helped me realize that while I had struggled to resolve major problems, creativity saved my life every time. My mind convinced me this symbol represented my creative energy because the tacit message that accompanied the image said: As long as you spend your time creating, you will live, and your life will have meaning.ДЄnother decade passed before I learned I was bipolar II and was sent off to the VA (VeteranвЂ™s Administration) psych ward in Wyoming to be prepped for Lithium. I decided it must have been a neutron star. On closer inspection, the white ball was a blur of speeding particles.

I n the black background of my mindscape, I suddenly saw-a small, white, ball of energy. When I was about to put my solution into action,В I was hit with an extremely bizarre epiphany. I sat in a chair thinking about the most effective way to take my life.

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I was drinking straight vodka from a bottle, swimming a Florida lake full of snakes and alligators, and trying to determine if there was any meaning to living. I had no idea at the time that stress had triggered my latent bipolar disorder. For the next several years, I stumbled in and out of clinical depression, laced with bouts of suicidal impulses, brief manic highs accompanied by an excess of alcohol, unacceptable social behavior, and mixed moods of anger, anxiety, self-doubt, and confusion. Two years later, in good part due to the 1980-1983 recession, I lost the ranch, all of my money, my new lifestyle, and the woman I loved turned and walked on me. The ranch, which faced the Continental Divide at 8,000 feet, was to be our last frontier. I had purchased a small guest ranch in Wyoming with the woman I loved. The worst began in 1980 when I was 42 years old. My life with bipolar disorder II has included six periods of success and six periods of failure.

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